martedì 31 dicembre 2013

Love has not showed up

PLEASE download my annual PLAYLIST immediately! Enjoy a brand new .zip folder full of songs illegally taken from the internet! & read the 2013 End of the Year Post listening at them! 'cause lyrics explain more about my feelings than anything I could ever write!

I did great things this year. However, I have been sad most of the time. I travelled and met new friends but every time I was reaching my objectives I felt lonely. I went to bed alone every single night and I woke up alone every single morning. This year has been professionally rewarding and sentimentally depressing. My heart is a place where love has not shined this year. I felt melancholic, I felt nostalgic.

Komm, süsser Tod
So with sadness in my heart
I feel the best thing I could do
is end it all
and leave forever
whats done is done, it feels so bad
what once was happy now is sad
I'll never love again
my world is ending 

I chose to walk alone but doing so I lost any landmark. I lost my coordinates. Reference points are so far away... sometimes I can not even see them. I have been in the dark, I felt in the dark.

When Will I See You Again
When will I see you again?
When will our hearts beat together?
Are we in love or just friends?
Is this my beginning or is this the end? 

I spent summer at home, alongside my family :) It was lovely and I felt like I could recover from my moody depression. This is the wonderful place that I belong to.

Past, Present And Future
Was I ever in love? I called it love - I mean, it felt like love.
There were moments when, well, there were moments when.

(Present), Go out with you? Why not?
Do I like to dance? Of course,
Take a walk along the beach tonight? I'd love to,
But don't try to touch me, don't try to touch me
'Cause that will never happen again,
Shall we dance?

(Instrumental Interlude)

(The future), Tomorrow? well, tomorrow is a long way off.
Maybe someday I'll have somebody's hand.
Maybe somewhere, someone will understand
.
You know I used to sing a-tisket a-tasket a green and yellow basket.
I'm all packed up and I'm on my way and I'm gonna fall in love,
But at the moment it doesn't look good
At the moment it will never happen again

I don't think it will ever happen again.

Italian summer, Part 1Part 2Part 3.
Then, in mid-September summer came to an end.

The Final Decision We All Must Take
In the end the final decision we all must take, make or break, 
will decide what will be and our destiny. 

If we lose the fight armageddon will finally tell, 
burn in hell, there will be no after, be no other day.

I flew to London for the third time this year to work at Frieze. Once back home I worked night and day on my applications for two schools but after having sent them to London I suddenly realized that the place where I was would have become soon the wrong place to be. There was nothing else to do at my home.

2013 - Travels

Jan 10 Firenze - Kibbun, Woo and I on the top of Firenze! just a lovely day! pic#1, pic#2
Jan 24-27 Bologna - Arte Fiera
Feb 17-24 London - open days
Apr 26-26 Roma - traveling with TalkingArt to meet #Trevisani #Bress #Giacconi #Stampone #Vetturi + a wild Tabor Robak appeared @ Palazzo delle Esposizioni…
May 6-12 Venezia - Toolkit Festival !!!
May 28-Jun 2 Venezia - Venice Biennale opening days!
Jun 11-21 London - open days and degree shows + Adham in the air 
Aug 29-Sep 1 Venezia - Marina Abramović's party!!
Oct 13-22 London - working at Frieze for the second year + Tabor Robak appeared again :)
& NOW WATCH two videos from some of the crews I escorted this year at Frieze!
>> Judd Tully Tours Frieze Masters @ BLOUIN ARTINFO [youtube] :D
>> The market for performance art @ Financial Times [youtube] :))

2013 - Best Exhibitions 

1 55th Biennale di Venezia - omg my first time at the Biennale opening days!!!
2 Farfromwords: car mirrors eat raspberries when swimming through the sun, to swallow sweet smells by Laure Prouvost @ Collezione Maramotti, Reggio Emilia - oh dear she won the Turner Prize!!
3 Twelve, wood, dolphin, knife, bowl, mask, crystal, bones and marble – fusion. Exploring materials by Evgeny Antufiev @ Collezione Maramotti, Reggio Emilia - dolphins & knives
4 Fault Lines by Allora & Calzadilla for Fondazione Nicola Trussardi @ Palazzo Cusani, Milano
5 EPI(DEIXIS) by Stéphane Blumer @ BY gallery, Milano
6 ISOMORPHOLOGY by Gemma Anderson @ EB&Flow, London
7 Sacco di lavoro by Hans Schabus @ Zero…, Milano

2013 - Best Works!

1 How Not To Be Seen. A Fucking Didactic Educational .Mov File by Hito Steyerl @ The Encyclopedic Palace - 55th Biennale di Venezia
2 Grosse Fatigue by Camille Henrot @ The Encyclopedic Palace - 55th Biennale di Venezia Joakim Bouaziz's voice!
3 The Failed Prophet by James Robertson @ Royal Academy Schools Show 2013, London
4 Ooh-oo-hoo ah-ha ha yeah by Jeremy Deller @ English Magic - British Pavilion 55th Biennale di Venezia
5 Hello Pal! by Mathias Poledna @ Austrian Pavilion - 55th Biennale di Venezia

Still from The Failed Prophet by James Robertson (2012)

2013 - some VIP & Artists I met and I'd like to mention

Orlan
Nicolò & Barbara
Hito Steyerl + Oliver Laric + Rhizome's Michael Connor + AFF + Yuri Pattison + omg i'm dying @ Palazzo Peckham
Loredana Longo & all the other friends I've met this year :)
Marina & Willem, again
Anish Kapoor @ Frieze Masters, sorry Anish I was with Judd Tully I will say hello next time xx

2013 - Published reviews and interviews

Stéphane Blumer, JulietArtMagazine.com
Gemma Anderson. Isomorphology, JulietArtMagazine.com
Il delfino mutante. Evgeny Antufiev, JulietArtMagazine.com
Il Palazzo Enciclopedico, JulietArtMagazine.com
The Abramović Method, JulietArtMagazine.com
On the Upgrade – WYSIWYG, JulietArtMagazine.com

2013 - Books I really appreciated reading (my summer readings)


2013 - Films I enjoyed watching and watching again and again and…

Fuck yeah! This year anime came to the big screen in Italy!
Sep 4 - Evangelion Night w/ Evangelion : 1.0 You Are (Not) Alone (2007) + Evangelion : 2.0 You Can (Not) Advance (2009) @.@
Sep 25 - Evangelion: 3.0 You Can (Not) Redo (2012) where is Ayanami?! (crying)
Nov 13 - BEST FILM I've watched this year: Wolf Children (2012) when a film makes me cry from the first minute, well, it must be the best one.
PLUS
on Nov 8 James Mangold's Knight and Day (2010) was on TV. Tom Cruise's badass attitude is everything (& Cameron Diaz).
and finally on a lonely but not sad evening I watched In the mood for love (2000) by my favourite of all time Wong Kar-wai.

her:
I didn't think you'd fall in love with me.
him:
I didn't either.
I was only curious to know how it started.
Now I know.
Feelings can creep up just like that.

Still from In the Mood for Love by Wong Kar-wai (2000)

2013 - Random best moments of the year

Jan 26 - Videoinsight® @ Pinacoteca Nazionale, Bologna!
Apr 4 - Asked to write a review of Ovidiu Hulubei's exhibition @ miart, Milano!
May 11 - Clubbing with the coolest artists from 2013 Toolkit Festival @ Venezia
May 28-Jun 2 Every fucking single second spent in Venezia during the Biennale opening days ♡♡♡
Jun 28 - I thought it was good to send an e-mail to one of my favourite artists so before writing I checked her website. AND THERE WAS A PICTURE OF ME?!!! Kate Liston
Jul 7 - Yoshiyuki Sadamoto drawn me Pen Pen!!!!!!!!!!!! @ Milano Manga Festival, Rotonda della Besana, Milano find Simone in this picture! :D
Jul 19 - IOCOSE Matteo introduced me to Marialaura Ghidini asking for a review of or-bits.com latest paper publication On the Upgrade – WYSIWYG!!! Much love to you guys :))
Aug 30 - went to the party of Marina Abramović in Venezia just to feel poor.
Sep 9 - a lovely summer day in Milano with Hyesung and Matilde :))
Oct 21 - and a lovely dinner at Strada with a beautiful view of Tower Bridge by night :)

2013 - six other unforgettable moments

Jan 25 - Masbedo performance @ Pinacoteca Nazionale, Bologna
May 25 - Pizza with Link Point guys @ Brescia
Aug 31 - TETTINA @ FORwART, Magazzini del Sale, Venezia (()) their work was brilliant (()) it totally got me (()) (()) (())
Oct ? - Nicola Lees offered me an earl grey @ Frieze London 2013 VIP Lounge. wot Y ?!?!
Oct 26 - took the IELTS guys ;) @ Reggio Emilia
Nov 19 - hanging around in Milano with artist friend Stéphane Blumer + Amanda Doran & Motoko Ishibashi | Flesh and Soul exhibition @ BYCR, Milano!

Everything you've ever dreamed
You can sail the seven seas and find
that love is a place you'll never see  
Passing you like a summer breeze  
You feel life has no other reason to be  
You can wait a million years and find  
That heaven's too far away from you  
Love's just a thing that others do  
What is love  
Till it comes home to you

Will I ever love again?

Things will happen in 2014.

Next time… A new beginning!

Still from Pocket Monsters Best Wishes! Ep#803 The Dream Continues! (2013)

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