In late August while I was spending a week on vacation I also wrote a letter to a person who knows me since I was a little child. Last time I had chance to meet her was last year. Again, I wrote about what I did in the last eight months and this is a sum-up of my letter.
Hello my dear,
hope you are well and everything is fine. I apologize for not having written to you in the past months. I went through a busy and tough time in my life.
At the moment I am spending a week on holiday in Liguria. As you might know my grandparents have a small apartment in Chiavari and I am staying here to take a rest after a couple of stressful months. This is a nice chance to write you a bit and to say that I am sorry if I did not call or write earlier.
If I am not wrong last time I wrote you it was from London. It was in February when I was there to visit a couple of schools. I've been traveling a lot since last year when I started to write reviews for magazines. I had to go around to see exhibitions and visit art fairs. I went to Bologna for a week, several times to Milan and Reggio Emilia and in April I even went to Rome for three days where I met three artists working in a museum. I recorded interviews with them for the art website I am used to contribute to. People started to contact me to review their exhibitions and I had several chances to meet established artists and people for the arts field.
In addition, in May I worked in Venice at a festival of emergent artists and after a couple of weeks I was back in Venice again as a journalist to visit and write on this year Venice Biennale. So, between May and June I spent almost twenty days in Venice. It was so rewarding to be invited at the opening of the Venice Biennale!
However, while I was traveling from my home to Rome, from Rome to Venice and so on, I started to feel bad. I felt lonely and I became a bit sad. It was like I was always with great people that I like very much but none of them was a friend of mine. I worked with them and I enjoyed that but every night when I was ready to go to sleep I was alone without a real friend close to me.
Actually, I met new friends and inspiring people but they often live in other countries. I am always in touch with them, sometimes my asian friends send me postcards and gifts from Korea or Japan but I am talking about that kind of friend that you can talk to when you are a bit sad. If your friends are living miles away what can you do? Do you know what I mean?
Regarding my old friends, it is sad to say but we became too different and now I find hard to share my interests and thoughts with them. This made me sad for a while, I felt increasingly alone.
This story ended in mid June when I went to London again and I visited the last university left on my list. That was a very uncomfortable trip because I even got sick. I do not know if it was because of the unpleasant London weather or just because I was sad and depressed but I did not feel well during I was staying there. I did not even enjoy to see my friends that I met in London last year. It was like we had become more acquaintances than friends…
That was a real turning point! In my heart I felt that it was the right moment to take a decision on my future. I needed it. I had visited all the schools I could visit and I had to choose one of them.
So, as soon as I got back home at the end of June I looked inside myself and I decided to do what I like the most. I started to work very very hard on my artworks because my final aim was and still is to work as an artist and hopefully to move to London for a couple of years if I will be good enough to enter one of my favourite art schools. I worked hard and I created lots of new interesting things! I will make a portfolio and finally I am going to apply more than one university within December.
Working at my home in Castelnuovo I recovered from sadness and loneliness. In the last two months I focused my attention just on my feelings. I really enjoyed staying at home close to my family. To be honest I had been away since last year when I spent six months abroad. Once back in Italy I started to travel again from here to there and I had never spent more then three weeks in a row with my family… I was enthusiastic and I wanted to see the whole world… I am still enthusiastic and I will definitely see the whole world but I also understood that sometimes I need to take a rest in Castelnuovo where I grew up and enjoy my time with my family that love me and always support me.
That's the clue I guess.
Recently, I also got some great news I want to tell you. I am going to end my vacation in Liguria earlier than expected because I got an invitation for a movie premiere at Festival del Cinema di Venezia starting next week! It will be a documentary about a very important living artist and it seems I got some good friend that managed to put my name on the VIP list.
But most important in October I will be back in London working at Frieze Art Fair as I did last year. They already confirmed my position at the Press Office. Frieze is one of the best three art fairs in the world and if they want to work with me because last year I did a good job I must be happy.
end of Part 2
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